Although I am a married man I have a mistress. Jackie knows about my relationship with her and is suprisingly incredibly supportive of the time we spend together.
I have known her all of my life. She is wonderful, beautiful, and intelligent and makes me feel so great that I cannot imagine that anyone has ever felt better. When I am down she cheers me up. When I am mad she soothes me. If I feel worthless she gives me hope.
When I was a little boy she took me into her confidence and told me that someday I would find myself in her. I didn't know if she was lying but I wanted to believe her. Deep down inside I knew she was telling me the truth. I did find myself within her eventually and in her, I feel that my talent is unlimited and that I can accomplish anything that I want to.
It's taken me years to understand her and although I have made great strides in comprehending what she tells me I sometimes feel that she is speaking a language foreign to my own.
Sometimes I feel bad about the time I spend with her when I know I should be spending that time with Jackie but I feel helpless about needing to be with her.
She can be difficult sometimes. When I try to communicate with her she is silent. When I need her for inspiration she gives me none but I know that it will always pass and that we will be together forever.
She has been with me all of my life. Her name is Music.
Monday, May 16, 2005
Sunday, May 15, 2005
Music Download Page Update
I updated the download webpage today.
http://www.ic-musicmedia.com/artist_pages/artistpage.php?id=102893
I posted the first 10 pieces from "The Paradise Tapes - Volume 1" for whoever is interested in checking it out. I will post the 11th and final piece from the album next time I update the page.
http://www.ic-musicmedia.com/artist_pages/artistpage.php?id=102893
I posted the first 10 pieces from "The Paradise Tapes - Volume 1" for whoever is interested in checking it out. I will post the 11th and final piece from the album next time I update the page.
Thursday, May 12, 2005
The Urge To Lose
I think I am ready to make a serious commitment to lose some weight. I would love to lose about 50 pounds or so. I realize that even if I lost the 50 pounds I would still be a large man because for some reason God saw fit to give me this massive bone structure that I carry around daily.
Keeping on a schedule of working out and exercising has never really been an issue for me. That is the easy part. My problem is cutting out the sweets. I have always been a chronic sweets binge eater. It is part of the very fabric of my being.
I like the thought of weighing 50 pounds less than I do right now but then I think what if I do it all in vain. I could lose the weight and look really good for a month and then get hit by a car driven by some distracted teenager. Then I would have to lie there on the sidewalk thinking "Goddamnit Life, You Son Of Bitch. You Screwed Me" as I slowly died. Or I could fall off of a roof at work and as I fell everything would go into slow motion and I would think of all the precious Take 5 candy bars I turned away from just to look good to the ground as I hit it.
If I did lose weight I'm sure it would prolong my life in someway but wouldn't that make me a procrastinator. Wouldn't I just be putting off the inevitable?
Keeping on a schedule of working out and exercising has never really been an issue for me. That is the easy part. My problem is cutting out the sweets. I have always been a chronic sweets binge eater. It is part of the very fabric of my being.
I like the thought of weighing 50 pounds less than I do right now but then I think what if I do it all in vain. I could lose the weight and look really good for a month and then get hit by a car driven by some distracted teenager. Then I would have to lie there on the sidewalk thinking "Goddamnit Life, You Son Of Bitch. You Screwed Me" as I slowly died. Or I could fall off of a roof at work and as I fell everything would go into slow motion and I would think of all the precious Take 5 candy bars I turned away from just to look good to the ground as I hit it.
If I did lose weight I'm sure it would prolong my life in someway but wouldn't that make me a procrastinator. Wouldn't I just be putting off the inevitable?
Friday, May 06, 2005
End Of The Week (a.k.a. Sweet Freedom)
It is finally Friday afternoon. There is no sweeter time of the week. There really isn't. I need this weekend. My arms are sore, my ribs are sore, everything is hurting.
I'm really looking forward to creating some beautiful music with my "House Music" cohorts tonight. I dearly love my Friday night "House Music" recording sessions although tonight I am being threatened with having to be the bass player unless Aaron comes through for me.
Jack and I are going to her cousin Leo's wedding tommorrow so I have to get out my dress clothes tonight and make sure I can still fit into them. Although I have been known to drink a beer or two at her families get togethers I am not sure how much drinking I will be doing. Terrie and Ryan will not be there and I am guessing that Norm will not be coming either.
In other news I am hopelessly addicted to Hershey's "Take 5" candy bars. I have taken to buying 4 or 5 at a time and eating about 2 a day. I have always been a whore for chocolate but this is bad. I also have tried "Peanut Butter Toast Crunch" which is a different version of "Cinnamon Toast Crunch" and I see the potential for another addiction.
I'm really looking forward to creating some beautiful music with my "House Music" cohorts tonight. I dearly love my Friday night "House Music" recording sessions although tonight I am being threatened with having to be the bass player unless Aaron comes through for me.
Jack and I are going to her cousin Leo's wedding tommorrow so I have to get out my dress clothes tonight and make sure I can still fit into them. Although I have been known to drink a beer or two at her families get togethers I am not sure how much drinking I will be doing. Terrie and Ryan will not be there and I am guessing that Norm will not be coming either.
In other news I am hopelessly addicted to Hershey's "Take 5" candy bars. I have taken to buying 4 or 5 at a time and eating about 2 a day. I have always been a whore for chocolate but this is bad. I also have tried "Peanut Butter Toast Crunch" which is a different version of "Cinnamon Toast Crunch" and I see the potential for another addiction.
Monday, May 02, 2005
Message To Microsoft Front Page
Message From Jeff Archer To Microsoft Front Page:
Victory Is Mine, BITCH.
Victory Is Mine, BITCH.
Sunday, May 01, 2005
Microsoft Front Page Sucks
Microsoft Front Page blows so hard. It really does. Don't think for a moment that it doesn't. Please don't let it trick you into thinking that it is some really nice easy program to use where all you have to do is type some things on the screen and post a picture and then you press a button and it all magically goes onto the web.
I have redone my main website again. It's all ready to go except I can't get Front Page to transfer it over correctly. It does this to me everytime. There is always a problem. This program uses no lube on me. NO LUBE and I'm raw and I'm bleeding now.
Eat me Front Page.
I have redone my main website again. It's all ready to go except I can't get Front Page to transfer it over correctly. It does this to me everytime. There is always a problem. This program uses no lube on me. NO LUBE and I'm raw and I'm bleeding now.
Eat me Front Page.
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Links and Stuff.
I finally found out how to post links and a profile picture up on the blogpage here. I have links to my main website and my music download page in the "links" section. I also updated the songs on the music download page to include the last 6 songs from "The Paradise Tapes - Volume 2", the last of the Paradise tapes.
Sunday, April 24, 2005
Sunday, April 17, 2005
Milk, The Goddess, and The Haunted House
That heading sounds like it should be a song title eh? Perhaps a 30 minute song written in the style of the 70's progressive rock bands that I love so dearly. Maybe someday. Although in actuality these titles reveal themselves to be the three main topics of this post.
Milk: Thursday afternoon I updated my main website. Then I was hungry so I grabbed a bag of Quaker chocolate rice patty things and a glass of milk. I came back to the computer to update this site and placed the bag and the milk on the computer table. I turned to get something and I knocked the glass of milk over. It went everywhere but mostly it just poured directly into the cable modem. I reacted quickly but the modem was fried. I disconnected it and turned it upside down to drain what milk I could out of it and then I let it dry out for a day. I hooked it up again Friday afternoon and it made a horrible whining sound (which in hindsight I really wish I had recorded) and the internet LED in the modem got dimmer and dimmer so I disconnected it again. I was going to call Comcast yesterday morning but I thought I would try it one more time before I made the call. I hooked it up and it worked. Amazing.
The Goddess: The Goddess Irena 1 has a show from 7:00 to 7:30 P.M. every Thursday on 7,415 khz, which is WBCQ - The Planet on the shortwave radio band. She plays the 12-string guitar and sings. I LOVE her music. Her voice is really nice and her playing is excellent but there is something deeper in her music that I hear and love but I can't describe it. She mostly plays older songs like "Blue Moon" and "Fools Rush In" and things like that. Maybe it's the sound of the home recordings that I like. Her website is http://www.biznetmall.com/goddessirena1/
The Haunted House: How many of you that usually read my blog page have re-occuring dreams? I had a dream last night in which I was at an abandoned house with Chris from "The Sopranos" only he wasn't Chris but some sort of tour guide/friend. He told me at first that the house was brand new but that no one would live there because of what had happened there which he did not disclose. He took me into the back of the house where nailed to a tree I saw a sign that read DEVIL WORSHIP AREA - REALLY. It was like a regular city or road commission sign like "Deaf child in area" or "School Zone". I took a couple of pictures of this sign with my digital camera. At that point he mentioned that there was a cemetary at the back of the house and asked if I wanted to see it. I declined and upon reaching the back gate to go out to the front of the house I noticed a sign on the gate that was kind of like an old movie poster and it read "Black Mamba". I do not know if this was a reference to a movie or what it meant. Out of the top of the sign was a vortex of black smoke rising up in a funnel shape. We walked out to the front lawn in front of the house and I asked him again about the age of the house. He said it was built in the 1940's. Sometimes in dreams I can kind of hover over things. I can't exactly fly but I can raise myself into the air and slowly move over things. I rose into the air over this house and moved over the top of it. The roof looked like any other old abandoned house but I noticed on the right side of the house towards the back about 5 feet up from the roof was a man, bloody and upside down, frozen in place as if he was falling or captured in mid fall. I assumed this was some kind of key to the house's haunting.
Now about a year ago I had a dream about this very same house. I went there with "The ghost people" who I hung out with briefly a couple of years ago. The house was exactly the same. The backyard was the same although there was no "DEVIL WORSHIP AREA" sign on the tree. In this dream however I did visit the cemetary in the back of the house which was a small family cemetary which was creepy but seemingly harmless. On the way out of the back yard on the fence was the sign that read "Black Mamba". There was no black smoke coming from the sign this time. I also did not hover above the house and see the "bloody, upside down" man.
The constants between the two dreams are the house and surrounding property, the cemetary, and the "Black Mamba" sign.
I have had re-occuring dreams before. As a child I had the same dream about 500 times over a 6 or 7 year period where my parents would be gone and I would be watching my younger brother and sister and two black cars would pull up to the house. For some reason I knew that they had come to kill us. I would get the both of them and we would run out of the back door. Once we got to the fence I would lift them both over the fence and I would tell them to run. Then I would be shot and killed.
Another dream I have had probably 100 times or so concerns another house. Sometimes it is abandoned, sometimes I live there and parts of it are not used. Nothing much happens in these dreams other than myself walking around in it and checking things out. It has these huge staircases that come down in a perfect square shape. The house is a mansion and when the dreams concern it being lived in it is very beautiful.
I was just wondering how many of you that regularly read this page have had re-occuring dreams of your own. Post your responses if you wish I would love to read them.
(as a side note to last nights dream I mentioned that I took a few pictures of the DEVIL WORSHIP sign. I anxiously looked at my camera this morning in the slight chance that I did indeed take these pictures in an O.B.E. or "Out of Body Experience". No such luck as I don't think pictures of the new red, white, and blue border that Jackie and Sass put up in the bedroom look much like a "DEVIL WORSHIP" sign.)
Milk: Thursday afternoon I updated my main website. Then I was hungry so I grabbed a bag of Quaker chocolate rice patty things and a glass of milk. I came back to the computer to update this site and placed the bag and the milk on the computer table. I turned to get something and I knocked the glass of milk over. It went everywhere but mostly it just poured directly into the cable modem. I reacted quickly but the modem was fried. I disconnected it and turned it upside down to drain what milk I could out of it and then I let it dry out for a day. I hooked it up again Friday afternoon and it made a horrible whining sound (which in hindsight I really wish I had recorded) and the internet LED in the modem got dimmer and dimmer so I disconnected it again. I was going to call Comcast yesterday morning but I thought I would try it one more time before I made the call. I hooked it up and it worked. Amazing.
The Goddess: The Goddess Irena 1 has a show from 7:00 to 7:30 P.M. every Thursday on 7,415 khz, which is WBCQ - The Planet on the shortwave radio band. She plays the 12-string guitar and sings. I LOVE her music. Her voice is really nice and her playing is excellent but there is something deeper in her music that I hear and love but I can't describe it. She mostly plays older songs like "Blue Moon" and "Fools Rush In" and things like that. Maybe it's the sound of the home recordings that I like. Her website is http://www.biznetmall.com/goddessirena1/
The Haunted House: How many of you that usually read my blog page have re-occuring dreams? I had a dream last night in which I was at an abandoned house with Chris from "The Sopranos" only he wasn't Chris but some sort of tour guide/friend. He told me at first that the house was brand new but that no one would live there because of what had happened there which he did not disclose. He took me into the back of the house where nailed to a tree I saw a sign that read DEVIL WORSHIP AREA - REALLY. It was like a regular city or road commission sign like "Deaf child in area" or "School Zone". I took a couple of pictures of this sign with my digital camera. At that point he mentioned that there was a cemetary at the back of the house and asked if I wanted to see it. I declined and upon reaching the back gate to go out to the front of the house I noticed a sign on the gate that was kind of like an old movie poster and it read "Black Mamba". I do not know if this was a reference to a movie or what it meant. Out of the top of the sign was a vortex of black smoke rising up in a funnel shape. We walked out to the front lawn in front of the house and I asked him again about the age of the house. He said it was built in the 1940's. Sometimes in dreams I can kind of hover over things. I can't exactly fly but I can raise myself into the air and slowly move over things. I rose into the air over this house and moved over the top of it. The roof looked like any other old abandoned house but I noticed on the right side of the house towards the back about 5 feet up from the roof was a man, bloody and upside down, frozen in place as if he was falling or captured in mid fall. I assumed this was some kind of key to the house's haunting.
Now about a year ago I had a dream about this very same house. I went there with "The ghost people" who I hung out with briefly a couple of years ago. The house was exactly the same. The backyard was the same although there was no "DEVIL WORSHIP AREA" sign on the tree. In this dream however I did visit the cemetary in the back of the house which was a small family cemetary which was creepy but seemingly harmless. On the way out of the back yard on the fence was the sign that read "Black Mamba". There was no black smoke coming from the sign this time. I also did not hover above the house and see the "bloody, upside down" man.
The constants between the two dreams are the house and surrounding property, the cemetary, and the "Black Mamba" sign.
I have had re-occuring dreams before. As a child I had the same dream about 500 times over a 6 or 7 year period where my parents would be gone and I would be watching my younger brother and sister and two black cars would pull up to the house. For some reason I knew that they had come to kill us. I would get the both of them and we would run out of the back door. Once we got to the fence I would lift them both over the fence and I would tell them to run. Then I would be shot and killed.
Another dream I have had probably 100 times or so concerns another house. Sometimes it is abandoned, sometimes I live there and parts of it are not used. Nothing much happens in these dreams other than myself walking around in it and checking things out. It has these huge staircases that come down in a perfect square shape. The house is a mansion and when the dreams concern it being lived in it is very beautiful.
I was just wondering how many of you that regularly read this page have had re-occuring dreams of your own. Post your responses if you wish I would love to read them.
(as a side note to last nights dream I mentioned that I took a few pictures of the DEVIL WORSHIP sign. I anxiously looked at my camera this morning in the slight chance that I did indeed take these pictures in an O.B.E. or "Out of Body Experience". No such luck as I don't think pictures of the new red, white, and blue border that Jackie and Sass put up in the bedroom look much like a "DEVIL WORSHIP" sign.)
Saturday, April 09, 2005
Quiet Week
This last week has been pretty quiet unless of course you are a devout Roman Catholic or a Michael Jackson fan. I have been pretty tired all week.
At work I have been conducting mechanical equiptment audits at Metro Detroit area Office Depots. This requires getting all the unit information, taking pictures of certain sections of the rooftop units, ect. All in all it's pretty easy work so it's been cool. Yesterday's Office Depot happened to be located right next door to the Edison customer service center in Lapeer where Jackie has been working so we got to have lunch together.
Last night Jackie and I got our taxes done then went to the Olive Garden for dinner. It occured to me last night that perhaps the Olive Garden is a new trendy spot for gays and lesbians? While there I saw three gay male couples and three lesbian couples eating separately. Now don't get me wrong, In my mind there is nothing wrong with being gay. I have friends that are gay and I love them all. I just wasn't aware that the Olive Garden was such a cultural mecca for gays and lesbians.
After dinner we came home and we watched "Napoleon Dynamite". I really, really, really don't think I have ever seen a more horrible movie. It was so awful and unbelievably unfunny. I really wanted to like it but there was no way. My in-laws loved it but I don't see how.
Last night I began feeling the first signs of an oncoming urinary tract infection. I'll leave you with that.
At work I have been conducting mechanical equiptment audits at Metro Detroit area Office Depots. This requires getting all the unit information, taking pictures of certain sections of the rooftop units, ect. All in all it's pretty easy work so it's been cool. Yesterday's Office Depot happened to be located right next door to the Edison customer service center in Lapeer where Jackie has been working so we got to have lunch together.
Last night Jackie and I got our taxes done then went to the Olive Garden for dinner. It occured to me last night that perhaps the Olive Garden is a new trendy spot for gays and lesbians? While there I saw three gay male couples and three lesbian couples eating separately. Now don't get me wrong, In my mind there is nothing wrong with being gay. I have friends that are gay and I love them all. I just wasn't aware that the Olive Garden was such a cultural mecca for gays and lesbians.
After dinner we came home and we watched "Napoleon Dynamite". I really, really, really don't think I have ever seen a more horrible movie. It was so awful and unbelievably unfunny. I really wanted to like it but there was no way. My in-laws loved it but I don't see how.
Last night I began feeling the first signs of an oncoming urinary tract infection. I'll leave you with that.
Sunday, April 03, 2005
The "Morrison Ballroom"
Hey everyone. I posted on my other website that I would be posting some pictures here of my friend Tommy's house where we played Friday night. His house really is the most beautiful place. It was abandoned at one time but they have fixed it up and it is very impressive.
The gig was ok. There were some sound problems that had to be dealt with. A death occured to one of the amplifiers as well but when the music was good it was good. Tommy was at his rock star best and I played guitar, keyboards, and drums.
Here are some of the pictures (in no certain order) below.
The gig was ok. There were some sound problems that had to be dealt with. A death occured to one of the amplifiers as well but when the music was good it was good. Tommy was at his rock star best and I played guitar, keyboards, and drums.
Here are some of the pictures (in no certain order) below.
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
New Music Download Website
Hey everyone. I have a new website which will host downloads of my music. I have the new E.P. - "Duets For Synthesizer" posted up there currently along with some other gems. The website address is
http://www.ic-musicmedia.com/artist_pages/artistpage.php?id=102893
I will be changing up the music on there frequently just to let you all know.
Spring is almost here so Jack and I are going to make the final push to get the condo up for sale. I took today off of work so I could pull the weeds in the front of the house and clean up the outside so it looks presentable. Jackie painted in the shower recently so that looks much better. I still have to caulk the bathtub for the sixth time. We can't wait to get a house and more inportantly we can't wait to leave the condo!
http://www.ic-musicmedia.com/artist_pages/artistpage.php?id=102893
I will be changing up the music on there frequently just to let you all know.
Spring is almost here so Jack and I are going to make the final push to get the condo up for sale. I took today off of work so I could pull the weeds in the front of the house and clean up the outside so it looks presentable. Jackie painted in the shower recently so that looks much better. I still have to caulk the bathtub for the sixth time. We can't wait to get a house and more inportantly we can't wait to leave the condo!
Sunday, March 27, 2005
Happy Easter
Happy Easter everyone.
Went to Scott Lozon's last night. What was weird was there was a period of 15 mins or so that Mick Senish, Rob Armitage, Scott, and myself were all in the same room. The combination of us 4 is what constitutes according to leading music critics and fans, the "classic" Tonto Savalas lineup.
Spent most of yesterday at Jackie's Mom and Dad's doing the Easter thing. I had a good time. We watched "The Birds". Dinner was great as always.
We are going to my Mom and Dad's today for Easter dinner there. Dinner should be good as well.
Have a good holiday and as Leon Russell once said, "Don't Get Hung Up About Easter".
Went to Scott Lozon's last night. What was weird was there was a period of 15 mins or so that Mick Senish, Rob Armitage, Scott, and myself were all in the same room. The combination of us 4 is what constitutes according to leading music critics and fans, the "classic" Tonto Savalas lineup.
Spent most of yesterday at Jackie's Mom and Dad's doing the Easter thing. I had a good time. We watched "The Birds". Dinner was great as always.
We are going to my Mom and Dad's today for Easter dinner there. Dinner should be good as well.
Have a good holiday and as Leon Russell once said, "Don't Get Hung Up About Easter".
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